Awesome site for Christmas...will update soon

Visit Oxfam America Unwrapped

------Kiddo's update------

Well the time is finally here. gabriel is graduatiing Kindergarten! He's made it this far with me as his mother so I guess he'll be fine lol. He gets to wear the cap and gown and whole bit and stand next to his girlfriend. Everyone should come check it out. I'll post pics when it's over.

Sis is still 2 and just got quite a bit of hari chooped off. She's a diva of course. I guess I am officially getting old lol.
peace-
Kas

Looking for ways to get a free ipod?

Well I have found 2 and they DO work! The first on is here:

http://friends.ipodsweepstakes.com/r/850b379646a4102aa9ae

The next is by a FREE E-book service. ALL you need is a email address to verify you. A non yahoo, etc.So email me so I can invit eyou to that one. No offers to complete for it. Good luck with your ipod searching!
Kas

Winzy

Well I am trying to save up extra $$ for our Disney trip coming up in July. So everyone please check out this site. You can win Ipods and more!
Thanks!
Kas

------Thought of the day------

Fragments of my imagination are nothing but litter across these pages. Cut them out and piece them together and one could have a masterpiece......
Kassie

"pieces of Me"

I'm someone who never goes anywhere without their toenails painted. BLACK of course. I do book reports for fun, love run on sentences and grammatical errors. Never know any one's phone number unless it's my cell. Read at least 2 books a week and watch at least 5 new movies. Love bloody, disgusting, nudity and zombie filled gore just as much as I love thought provoking period pieces or just fucked up dysfunctional "hey that is me" type of movies that make you think. Love to sing in the shower and dance around like a fool with my kids. i own at least 23 different types of all black shirts. Seriously. Would rather hear my kids say shit and laugh about it then send them to their room for expressing feelings. I write a million and one rants, poems, and mindless bullshit a night. I love to write letters to people I'll never send. if you are reading this then I probably have one for you in my notebook or email. I hate labels but am the first to use them. Am a horrible insomniac who can stay up for 3 days straight unless I have my sleeping pills. I'm the best friend you could ever have unless you fuck me then I'll steal your ice trays and even your toilet seat. I love to kiss and be kissed. Would rather drink any clear liquor than drink any beer. All of these insane things make up me and I wouldn't change any of them for anyone.
Kas

Daily Rant*******

Been on a movie kick again. I have seen "Original Sin" numerous times. Both Angelina and Antonio play excellent parts. My new fav. quote:

"You were married to a dream. A dream that stole your soul. God must have been angry with you the day he let you look in that woman's face."

------Movies I've seen------

So I love movies. Try to watch a new one at least once a day. Here are some I have watched lately:

Marie Antoinette Overall Grade c+

This could have been an EXCELLENT movie. Total cult classic. BUT it it boring. Only 1 affair shown and a few random parties, but honestly nothing "interesting" happens in the entire movie. I'd say watch it if you like period pieces and Kirsten Dunst. Other than that nope.

------Top 5 On The IPOD------

• My Chemical Romance-The Black Parade
• John Legend-Save Room
• Avenged Sevenfold-Seize The Day
• All American Rejects-It Ends Tonight
• 30 Seconds to Mars-The Kill

A new feature I'm adding. Yes I'm one of those annoying ppl who always have their Ipod on. Makes simple things like doing dishes more meaning. I have a soundtrack to life now lol.

Kas

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Hope All of you ghosts and goblins have a wonderful time and get lots of candy! Send in those Halloween Costume pics and I'll post them//

Kas

Daily Rant*******

Well after about a year of being a no show... I am bringing Mindless Rantings of an Insomniac back to life! So be prepared for more insane dribble and thoughtless bullshit. Or you could just close that teeny tiny x over there and I will be gone. :o)

Let's see updates in my life:
1. Gabriel is 5 and is in Kindergarten now. (WHOA am I actually getting old?
2. Isabella is now 2!!! And has decided to stop calling Mommie and call me "Kassie"
3. Brian has finally gotten promoted.

SO all must be weell right?

Daily Rant*******

My emotions are getting to be bothersome again. Ever had a day when you wish you COULDN'T"T feel? I have been going from manic to a depressed state at the drop of a hat. But I don't want to be medicated again. Walking around like all of the other non feeling pill induced zombies roaming the Earth. When I am medicated I feel more isolated and alone than I do sitting here in the dark. I guess I'll just have to grab hold of the reigns and slowly begin taking back control of my emotions, my mind....Me. If not for me for the kids......
-Kas

Daily Rant*******Part 2

The Darkness. It comforts me. I like being up alone by myself where I can think, write, dream. Yet at the same time something terrifies me so much that I am having trouble sleeping in the dark again. The dreams come and even if I lay awake I see shadows....waiting...lurking....watching. I know it sounds crazy. To both love it and despise it. I know it does. Maybe I am going crazy. Or having an "break" from reality. Whatever it is I grow tired of this constant rollercoaster. The minute by minute of the day passes quickly while the darkness passes millisecond by millisecond. So I can feel, taste, smell every moment and thrive off it and at the same time be repulsed and scared of it. At this point if I am crazy or insane or delusional I am used to it.
Kas

Daily Rant*******

Finished a book last night. Strangers by Dean Koontz. Loved it. It made me think about many things. The reason I bought it was the beginning synopsis. Strangers who live far away from each other are all having nightmares. Captivated me from the start. No I didn't expect the whole "alien" thing till about halfway in, but all in all a good book which took me for a ride. Before I guessed where it was going though I actually had to put the book down for a few weeks. MY nightmares had begun again and took a life of their own. Wonder if there are Strangers who live far from me having the same nightmares I am having? Then again I know where my dreams come from and unfortunately they don't involve loving aliens.......

Another thing that I loved was it made me think of the possibilities.....That maybe mankind would head in the right direction. Hey remember I am thinking here. Anyway. if you get a chance pick it up. A good ride from start to finish.
Kas

------QUOTE OF THE DAY------

• A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy? -Albert Einstein

~~~Pleasured Pain~~~

"The pain of pleasure is still pleasure"

My eyes dance to your beauty, caught in your skin veiled beneath seduction. My body follows yours as our eyes devour each other. You taste my desire with an expectant tongue and smile as your eyes whisper for more. I fall at your command. Waiting for your every demand. You know I am yours and give a smile in return. for that pleasured pain you will give that I yearn. Your eyes search my white eager skin., thinking of the pleasures soon to begin. Anxious sweat breaks on my brow. Expecting a crack of lather to answer me now. You taunt me by saying "You are mine, all of You." You leave a lash of fire that was the answer to my darkest desire.

-Unknown

"For Revenge"

KILLING.
I hate doing it, but I must.
After each kill,
I feel I;ve gone nuts.
I must be crazy,
Because I like to feel your last breath.
And to know
That I was the one who caused your death.
It gives me power.
It gives me a thrill.
I feel like a GOD,
After I kill.
Blood on my hands,
Blood on my neck.
So much blood,
It almost makes me sick.
Changed my clothes
Then cleaned the blood up.
Wonder where to bury him,
As I put him in the trunk.
How many more to go?
He was number nine.
As many as needs be.
Till I feel the revenge is mine!
-Kassie
**discalimer** No of course I have never done this. It is fiction idiot.

------QUOTES OF THE DAY------

• Life is a disease...Sexually transmitted and always fatal. -Neil Gaiman
• Fiction is the truth inside the lie. -Stephen King
• Writing is like making love, but it's also like pulling a tooth. Pleasure and Pain. Sometimes it's even like making love while having a tooth pulled. -Dean Koontz
• Remember whatever your religion, most of the world disagrees with you anyway. -off of a bumper sticker
• Too often we lose sight of life's simple pleasures. Remember....when someone annoys you it takes 42 muscles to frown and only 4 to extend your arm and bitch slap the motherfucker up side the head. -off of a t-shirt

Daily Rant*******Part 2

Inspiration has been gone now for months.....I want to write....Furthermore NEED to write. Yet anything of significance flees from my mind before I can grab it. I wake up in cold sweats knowing I should write down my dreams......But only fragments are left in the clouds......


Heart to Hand-Hand to Pen-Pen to Paper. Sounds so simple right? Sometimes the flow faster than my hands can keep up. They flow with such ease and grace that they form a life of their own and where I was headed is not where I end up. Yet, other times I feel as if I will simply BUST if I don't write. Then the words fall on numb hands and there is no medicine for it.

-Kas

Daily Rant*******

Been a few months since I have updated. Got in on the whole Xbox craze. Between me and a friend we made a total of close to $400 profit to split 2 ways. Capitialism at its finest what can I say. Closer and Closer until Chrsitmas. Have to start getting ready sooner rather than later if I want to get it all done in time.

Been going to NA meetings with my brother-in-law for support. Funny how it makes me feel like such a hypocrite.

Was scanning some blogs and one caught my eye. ... in the-shadows was the name of it. Alot of heart and sadness in it. Reminds me alot of myself when I was younger. Thats all on my mind yet. I'll wander around cyber world and I'm sure I will be able to find other interesting things to write about.
-Kas

"The Dream"

I had a dream
In that dream I was running
Running from who or what I don't know.
I knew not to look back or my soul would be lost forever.
But the temptation was too strong.
I had to....NEEDED to.
I looked back and saw him
Satan
Running behind me, a fleshy shadow of my secret mind.
Running, Knowing.
Luring me to look deep inside, to the evil I held within.
Begging me to release it.
I looked in my soul, but what was there I can not remember.
If I did I'm sure I'd go insane.
Did I give in to the evil or no?
I guess I'll never know...
Because you see at that terrifying moment I woke up.
-Kassie

Daily Rant*******

Been learning more html and using PSP in the past few days. Redoing my whole eBay image....Trying to make more $$ as usual. Aren't we all? Dara has her baby on Wed. Hopefully everything will go o.k.
Kas

"dear god"

god? are you there? are you listening to me? and if you are why have you ignored me before? all i want to know is why you cause so much pain and suffering?!? "GOD" is supposed to be loving, kind, caring, and generous. NOT painful, conniving, callous, and letting us suffer at his amusement. you let children go hungry....women get beaten... people are homeless...and some you let die too early. some say you put us throughout "tests.: well i say ENOUGH of the goddamned tests. i for one have learned all i've need to learn. i've suffered all i've wanted to suffer....as many others have as well. we are always supposed to trust in you and put you first. but where were you when I need you? where were you when the LITTLE BOY was praying for a piece of bread? or the WOMAN begging you for her husband not to drink and beat her again. HUH?!? so "GOD" i'll make it easy for you. i'm not praying anymore...so there is one less meager human to listen to.
-kasandria

***ESCAPE Part 2***

Each step I take-each pill I take I fall further into the abyss. Each toke I take-each pound I make the escape becomes my bliss.

I like it..To feel nothing. After feeling so much pain and anger it's what I need. To escape.

I slip back into my min-find a little corner to hide. A place that is safe and warm...Gives me shelter from the storm.

This self destruction storm also known as my life. I can't take it! I need more. My mind is hazy-my eyes are glossy. I feel like I am the walking dead.

I feel no love, I feel no hate. It's what I want-what I need. This is the shelter I was looking for. I can't take much more.

Never again. No more. I can't take it. My mind is spinning out of control. It won't stop. The abyss is closing in on me. Now with my fears for company I go hide in my corner again. For every time the light begins to shine-I swallow. One more. Just one more. One more won't hurt.

-Kassie

***ESCAPE Part 1***

Escape from all this madness. Escape from all the sadness. I close my eyes and think of a far away land. The land where my dreams would come true. It's easy to escape from reality. But after awhile-it's hard to get back. It starts to become to comfortable. I can't tell the difference anymore. Is my reality my dreams? Or are my dreams my reality? He hands me some more. They go down as easy as before. Swallow my pain. Swallow my sorrow. I escape. I feel better now. Sit back. Relax. I don't feel a thing. Just go back to my fantasies. One day----I may take too many. Maybe that would be ok. Because then I would be forever in my dreams and wouldn't have to escape this reality.

-Kassie

Daily Rant*******

Been a couple of days since I've been here......Had drunken spells, and many many many listings on eBay to put up. But somewhere in the hoopla I found time to watch the movie CRASH. Let me just say it is one of those Tragically beautiful movies. It deals with hard core issues (racism) that most people believe don't exist in this day and age. The fact remains that EVERYONE including yourself STILL judges a book by its cover....Even when we try not to. It is hard but I think we must as a community try and not be so judgmental about the kid with the nose ring, the girl who had a baby at 16. The mother addicted crack.......The list goes on and on. Instead of opening or mouths to say something negative we should be out there helping....Doing something positive to change the situation.........Hell I am always better at giving other people advice instead of following my own....
Kas

***who shall read this***

each person who find this
will take a different piece of me
devouring my thoughts
succumbing to my nightmares
stripping me..........my words, my thoughts
with their eyes
some i scare
some i excite
some think i'm perverse
most run away in fright
yet, no one could ever understand the reason i write.
-kasandria

------SUNLIGHT------

I see it when you are sleeping. Like an angel that has fallen, but even more beautiful. I see the outline of your face. Even the pulse in your neck. You are my son......The sunshine of my life.
-Kasandria

Daily Rant*******

Kids gone for the weekend.**********WOOHOO************ I love them and miss them, but I was ready for a break. Time to break out the liquor. I need to clean house but we shall see if it actually happens...........
-Kas





Contemplating life and its many wonders while sitting by the computer smoking.....Getting tired and my thoughts become blurred. It would be easier if I could become the smoke and drift away until there was nothing left of me....
-Kas

------QUOTES OF THE DAY------

• "The line diving good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a part of his own heart?"-Alexander Solzhenitsyn, The Gulag Archipelago
• "There is a great freedom in despair. Once reached even despair can be paradise...." -Lord Byron
• "I often think the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day."-Vincent Van Gogh

------The Sad Girl------

Her eyes have became nothing more than vacant holes from where she's cried...over him. It's 4 am and she still hasn't found her place yet. Everything that she knew and was familiar with included him. Now he's gone and she's left slipping on the tears she's cried. She's lost all hope. She reminds me of a beautiful angel, but she has a broken wing. Eventually time will heal her and she'll move on. She'll be alright in the end. She will reclaim her faith in love and in herself. Until then she'll live day by day and cry herself to sleep.
------kas

Daily Rant*******

Just saw the trailer for Exorcism of Emily Rose a few minutes ago and man let me tell you it is gonna be a good/scary film. It also got me to thinking about the whole exorcism thing. Supposedly this is "based on a true story" and is the Roman Catholic Church actually had to admit to it. Which as you and I both know doesn't happen very often......But the question is what do you think? Do you believe in the devil/demons and/or possessions? And if you do do you believe in God? God and I aren't on happy terms right now and sometimes I have even thought I was an atheist. BUT I do believe in demon possession.....So where does that leave me? Since I believe in that extreme in truth there must be another to balance it out.....Right? Ughhhhh just another thought in my sea of madness........
Kas

***WHAT IF***

WHAT IF
WHAT IF the world was as grey as my mind???
WHAT IF a sinner was god???
WHAT IF everyone spoke their mind and was brutally honest???
WHAT IF i had the ability to forgive and forget???
WHAT IF bad things never happened???
WHAT IF everyone was noRmal???
WHAT IF everyone believed in something???
WHAT IF the devil were true???
WHAT IF i should die???
WHAT IF
-Kasandria Michelle




---------------------------------BURDENS CAN KILL YOU---------------------------------

"A Tear"

a tear falls from her face

i wish i could take her place

she's still innocent and pure

if only i had the cure

how can this be happening again

with me watching as the horrors begin

i wish i could erase her pain

but i'm only standing here watching her be slain

slain in anger and sadness

i wish i could escape this madness

a tear falls from her face

i wish i could take her place

-kasandria

------QUOTES OF THE DAY------

• "Once exposed to the darkness ever present and ever hidden among us, one is forever tainted."-Mark L. Stinson
• "Superstition is the religion of feeble minds."-Edmund Burke
• "I wouldn't recommend sex, drugs, or insanity for everyone, but they've always worked for me."-Hunter S. Thompson

***SLEEPLESSNESS***

Another night of sleeplessness; Another night of loneliness. What is there to do???? Nothing...What is there to say??? Nothing... It's just me with my incoherent rantings. I write, but what does it mean??? Nothing... To anyone except me. Am I lost within myself? Is this lack of sleep making me delirious? Is anyone even reading this? I think I'm just over-analyzing things too much again...

-Kasandria

Daily Rant*******

Heard that song Sic Transit Gloria by Brand New earlier this week and I can't get it out of my mind...Everything about it. The sound, melody, lyrics, and what it stands for. It is about girl who takes advantage of a boy. Now I know that is DOES happen and it's not right yadda yadda....but I know that at least one girl out of every 3 fantasizes about taking advantage of a sensitive boy sometime........
-Kas

"Living In Hell"

There is no living
Just hell
But, after all hell is more fascinating and bizarre than heaven ever could be.
I guess that's why we are here
To see how much hell your so called GOD can put us through
But since I;m here I will explore this vast underworld before me
Until one day I will die
Who knows where my soul will end up
Because if this is hell then where do I go from here?
-Kas

"Twisted"

An angel with a nail

Stabbed me in the heart

And set my demons free

This nasty dark little secret

Festered and turned into madness

It wanted itself to happen

The world was black

And I partook of the darkness

I had become cloaked in sin

I am only the night mare

Which you created

And now I leave my pain in you

My delirium has become contagious

And is now spreading like a whore

--UNKNOWN--

Daily Rant*******

Been listening to a lot of My Chemical Romance lately. Love their lyrics. Especially Cemetery Gates and Demolition lovers. Who knows when I run out of stuff to put up here maybe I'll post some of their lyrics. Now on to some useless information that I have thought up today......

Things that I wish I had thought of

1. Trampolines......A little piece of black material that kids jump on and do all kinds of stupid tricks on and inevitably wind up breaking something. But man are they sure fun.
2. Those little paper umbrellas that you put in your drink. They have no other purpose in life except to look cute. Wish that's all I had.
3. Clocks......I live for clocks. Different shapes, sizes, and styles. The weirder the better. I have 2 of Salvador Dalis prints of melting clocks.
4. Sex......What an incredible fun thing that also reproduces the entire human race. Also burns calories. ;)
5. Last but not least Blogs.....A perfect tool for all us hopeless souls who have way too much going on in their brain. A perfect avenue for random bullshit.

-Kas

"My Fault"

You say it's my fault
When I wear the shiny red dress
Smile a lipstick smile
Walk alone in the streets at night
You say I asked for it
With the way I moved
The way I looked, talked, touched.

But was it my fault when I was small?
When I had pink bows in my hair
Pretty dresses with frills
A perfect cotton candy smile
When I didn't understand what was happening
Only that it must be my fault

So now I speak in stories
Because my half truths of fiction
Are easier to believe than my reality

-Kasandria {in Bradford}

Daily Rant*******

The kids' birthday party is in the morning. God, don't you hate when a bunch of people you really don't like have to come over to your house? House has to be clean, food cooked, a a permanent fucking fake smile plastered to your face. The only good thing about it at all is my children's' faces light up. I would do anything for that.
Kas

***The Cycle***

Stick it in. The bliss is immediate. Watch with fascination as my blood and my sin mixes, intertwines. Ahhhh, how beautiful. Words cannot express the feeling that comes over me. I feel divine. Like I have control over everything. Not even sex is as good as this. This must be what God feels like....
T
H
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N
Just as quickly it all disappears. Sweat pours out and down, as the spasms rack my body. I need more, crave more. Maybe I can scrape some off the floor. Just enough for one more hit. This pain is getting too intense. I swear it's my last fix. Who am I kidding. The cycle will just begin again.
Kasandria

~~~What Love Feels Like by Stephen King~~~

"Falling in love is like getting hit by a large truck, and yet not being wounded. Just sick to your stomach. High one minute, low the next. Starving hungry, yet unable to eat. Hot, cold, forever horny, full of hope and enthusiasm with momentary depressions that wipe you out."

"Falling in love is not being able to remove the smile from your face. Loving life with a mad and passionate intensity.."

"Love does not appear with any warning signs. You fall into it as if pushed from a high diving board. No time to think about what's happening. You Never expect it. It's inevitable. An event you can't control. A crazy heart stopping, roller-coaster ride that just has to take its course. And each time you fall-you fall harder."

-from a Stephen King book

~~~Something Inspiring by Jim Morrison~~~

once i had a little game
i liked to crawl back into my brain
i think you know the game i mean
i mean the game called "go insane"

now you should try this little game
just close your eyes forget your name
forget the world forget the people
and we'll erect a different steeple

this little game is fun to do
just close your eyes no way to lose
and i'm right there i'm going too
release control we're breaking thru

burrow back into the brain
way back past the realm of pain
back where there's never any pain

-jim morrison

"My Locked Cabinet"

I am lost again.....Wandering aimlessly through the vast canyons of my mind. Going through the files I keep locked tight. Traveling through each memory with ease and indifference. I drift around to pass the time. Lingering in the dark corners of my twisted mind. I am safe and secure here. Lost in this realm of utter hopelessness that only I can comprehend. I could stay here forever. Living in the past. Here I can't fee. Here I am numb. Here I am completely.........me.
Kas

Daily Rant*******

Trying to get ready for the kids' birthday party is like trying to pop a pimple. It hurts like hell but you know you know you gotta do it or everyone will look at you funny. :) Gabriel will be 4 and Isabella just turned 1. Other than that everything is alright.
Kas

"Nightmare"

My heart is full of aching fear

Not knowing where my life will steer

My sleep is full of restless dreams

I'm troubled as to what it means

My waking moments are filled with dread

Of wondering where my nightmare lead

I can't remember what is I meet

But I spend my days in fear of sleep

The nightmare dies before the dawn

And lays cloudless in a mindless storm

I fight my mind to understand

The fear that stalks my slumberland

Evening time and my fear it darkens

With tired eyes my soul it beckons

I surrender to sleep its reckoning time

I wonder if I'll wake in control of my mind

My dreams lead me to a frightning place

The evils of thr night to face

I contemplate fear as I slip down further

And try to hide my self far under the covers

As the fear it grips. it starts the chase

Will I ever be able to win this race

It claws at me within the black

I feel it tighten until I am trapped

Gasping and choking I drown in the night

Always struggling to see the light

The light becomes stronger the more that I fight

Yet I fear somehow I won't survive this night

I awake shivering in sweat soaked sheets

Wondering how I accomplishe this great feat

I'll spend my days in fear of sleeping

Until it decides my soul is for keeping

Kassie

"THE DEMON"

He came to my bedroom late in the night.
Whispering to me words of fright.
He was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.
Yet, I was scared and kept my senses keen.
He swept me up and carried me away.
To a land of death that was cold and grey.
He spoke to me in a voice so cold.
Promising his love would never grow old.
Then he came to a stop by an altar of stone.
Then laid me upon it surrounded by bones.
He told me he loved me as he kissed my breast.
I shuddered and asked him why must we rest?
He smiled and said "THIS is now your home."
"You'll be my queesn and sit next to me on my throne."
I cried and I yelled, "How could this be?!?!"
He simply replied My dear you have sinned and gave your soul to thee......
That's when I noticed hi eyes full of rage.
And my lover beside him trapped in a cage.
I screamed when I saw him and cried "Give him back his life!"
His smile so sinister as he said "Only if you'll be my wife."
I hung my head with sorrow and shame.
For I knew I was the only one to blame.
I looked back up into his eyes so red.
And began to smile as I shook my head.
I told him I'd stay, but with a condition of my own.....
That I may be free and allowed to roam.
He shook his head to the left then to the right.
Then bared his teeth so long and bright.
What do you mean allowed to roam?
If you do then you are no longer my own.
He changed his mind and said "Yes, you may.."
"BUT remember you are here to stay."
Then he began to kiss my lips.
And worked his way down roughly to my hips.
My lover sat and watched in vain.
Thinking that I had surely gone insane.
As the demon brought me to ecstasy.
I wondered what in the hell was happening to me.
Things were popping in my head left and right.
Flames of beauty, Flames of bright.
After he had his way with me.
I wondered how GOD could let this be.
That's when I realized GOD was not real.
And I had been a fool to believe that whole deal.
The demon said "Where is your GOD now?"
I simply replied "You are my GOD." Then wiped the sweat off my brow.
I am now yours and you are now mine.
And it will be that way until the end of time.
Kasandria

Daily Rant*******

I've been watching a lot of war movies lately. Who knows why. Mostly movies about WWII. Band of Brothers, Enemy at The Gates, Saving Private Ryan, and Schindler's List. I know "why" we go to war, but I can never figure out what makes these people commit search terrible and awful atrocities in the first place. I guess I'll never know........
Kas

------INSOMNIA------

"There is a gulf between those who sleep and those who can not. It is one of the greatest divisions of the human race." Iris Murdoch

Here it is again......1:45. My husband and kids are sleep and I am wandering around trying to find something to occupy the time.......I wish I knew what caused this. What cured it. After a few days of it my mind begins to wander in the daylight. Things take on an odd shape or sound a little different. It starts to affect your reality. People who have never been there could never understand. For some as soon as their heads hit the pillow they are in dreams. For people like me you lay there.......and lay there.....and lay. Trying to convince your self you are asleep. In my hours of idleness I write....What do you do?

Kas

Some quotes that I have come across in my life.....

• "Under different circumstances we might have been the best of friends"......Unknown
• "Misery can sometimes be a fine and pleasant thing......A dark drug. The joy least likely to betray its faithful addicts." Lord Byron
• "There is no sense in writing something if you can't say what's true to your heart." Stephen King
• "Hell is reimagined by every generation." Clive Barker
• "I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity" Edgar Allen Poe
• "No one stays at the top forever" CASINO
• "I would never be otherwise than I am.....The wandering outlaw of my Dark Mind...." Lord Byron
• "Joan of Arc heard voices....Moses heard voices...Does this then make a chizophrenic a Saint? Or a Saint a Schizo?" Deborah LaRue

The beginning.......

Everything has a beginning this is mine. Just set up Mindless Rantings of an Isomniac. Maybe someone will stumble across it and become inspired or intrigued. Maybe it will just take up more space on the web. Who knows. But it gives me something to do with all the thoughts in my head. I will start posting more stories, poems, rants, or whatever random bullshit my mind comes up with. --------------------Kas